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29 iunie 2022
There is an overdue payment under your name. Please, settle your debts ASAP.
Hi!
Sadly, there are some bad news that you are about to hear.
About few months ago I have gained a full access to all devices used by you for internet browsing.
Shortly after, I started recording all internet activities done by you.
Below is the sequence of events of how that happened:
Earlier I purchased from hackers a unique access to diversified email accounts (at the moment, it is really easy to do using internet).
As you can see, I managed to log in to your email account without breaking a sweat: (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
Within one week afterwards, I installed a Trojan virus in your Operating Systems available on all devices that you utilize for logging in your email.
To be frank, it was somewhat a very easy task (since you were kind enough to open some of links provided in your inbox emails).
I know, you may be thinking now that I'm a genius.
With help of that useful software, I am now able to gain access to all the controllers located in your devices (e.g., video camera, keyboard, microphone and others).
As result, managed to download all your photos, personal data, history of web browsing and other info to my servers without any problems.
Moreover, I now have access to all accounts in your messengers, social networks, emails, contacts list, chat history - you name it.
My Trojan virus continues refreshing its signatures in a non-stop manner (because it is operated by driver),
hence it remains undetected by any antivirus software installed in your PC or device.
So, I guess now you finally understand the reason why I could never be caught until this very letter...
During the process of your personal info compilation, I could not help but notice that you are a huge admirer and regular guest of websites with adult content.
You endure a lot of pleasure while checking out porn websites, watching nasty porn movies and reaching breathtaking orgasms.
Let me be frank with you, it was really hard to resist from recording some of those naughty solo scenes with you in main role and compiling them in special videos
that expose your masturbation sessions, which end with you cumming.
In case if you still have doubts, all I need is to click my mouse and all those nasty videos with you will be shared to friends, colleagues, and relatives of yours.
Moreover, nothing stops me from uploading all that hot content online, so all public can watch it too.
I sincerely hope, you would really not prefer that to happen, keeping in mind all the dirty things you like to watch,
(you certainly know what I mean) it will completely ruin your reputation.
However, don't worry, there is still a way to resolve this:
You need to carry out a $1290 USD transfer to my wallet (equivalent amount in bitcoins depending on exchange rate at the moment of funds transfer),
hence upon receiving the transaction, I will proceed with deleting all the filthy videos with you in main role.
Afterwards, we can forget about this unpleasant accident. Furthermore, I guarantee that all the malicious software will also be erased from your devices and accounts.
Mark my words, I never lie.
That is a great bargain with a low price, I assure you, because I have spent a lot of effort while recording
and tracking down all your activities and dirty deeds during a long period of time.
In case if you have no idea how to buy and transfer bitcoins - feel free to check the related info on the internet.
Here is my bitcoin wallet for your reference: 1LrBGezKti4m2cov7CKuurLnCfQvjp2o1A
From now on, you have only 48 hours and countdown has started once you opened this very email (in other words, 2 days).
The following list contains things you should definitely abstain from doing or even attempting:
> Abstain from trying to reply this email (since the email is generated inside your inbox alongside with return address).
> Abstain from trying to call or report to police or any other security services. In addition, it's a bad idea if you want to share it with your friends,
hoping they would help. If I happen to find out (knowing my awesome skills, it can be done effortlessly,
because I have all your devices and accounts under my control and unceasing observation) - kinky videos of yours will be share to public the same day.
> Abstain from trying to look for me - that would not lead anywhere either. Cryptocurrency transactions are absolutely anonymous and cannot be tracked.
> Abstain from reinstalling your OS on devices or throwing them away. That would not solve the problem as well,
since all your personal videos are already uploaded and stored at remote servers.
Things you may be confused about:
> That your funds transfer won't be delivered to me.
Chill, I can track down any transactions right away, so upon funds transfer I will receive a notification as well,
since I still control your devices (my trojan virus has ability of controlling all processes remotely, just like TeamViewer).
> That I am going to share your dirty videos after receiving money transfer from you.
Here you need to trust me, because there is absolutely no point to still bother you after receiving money.
Moreover, if I really wanted all those videos would be available to public long time ago!
I believe we can still handle this situation on fair terms!
Here is my last advice to you... in future you better ensure you stay away from this kind of situations!
My advice - don't forget to regularly update your passwords to feel completely secure.
Sadly, there are some bad news that you are about to hear.
About few months ago I have gained a full access to all devices used by you for internet browsing.
Shortly after, I started recording all internet activities done by you.
Below is the sequence of events of how that happened:
Earlier I purchased from hackers a unique access to diversified email accounts (at the moment, it is really easy to do using internet).
As you can see, I managed to log in to your email account without breaking a sweat: (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
Within one week afterwards, I installed a Trojan virus in your Operating Systems available on all devices that you utilize for logging in your email.
To be frank, it was somewhat a very easy task (since you were kind enough to open some of links provided in your inbox emails).
I know, you may be thinking now that I'm a genius.
With help of that useful software, I am now able to gain access to all the controllers located in your devices (e.g., video camera, keyboard, microphone and others).
As result, managed to download all your photos, personal data, history of web browsing and other info to my servers without any problems.
Moreover, I now have access to all accounts in your messengers, social networks, emails, contacts list, chat history - you name it.
My Trojan virus continues refreshing its signatures in a non-stop manner (because it is operated by driver),
hence it remains undetected by any antivirus software installed in your PC or device.
So, I guess now you finally understand the reason why I could never be caught until this very letter...
During the process of your personal info compilation, I could not help but notice that you are a huge admirer and regular guest of websites with adult content.
You endure a lot of pleasure while checking out porn websites, watching nasty porn movies and reaching breathtaking orgasms.
Let me be frank with you, it was really hard to resist from recording some of those naughty solo scenes with you in main role and compiling them in special videos
that expose your masturbation sessions, which end with you cumming.
In case if you still have doubts, all I need is to click my mouse and all those nasty videos with you will be shared to friends, colleagues, and relatives of yours.
Moreover, nothing stops me from uploading all that hot content online, so all public can watch it too.
I sincerely hope, you would really not prefer that to happen, keeping in mind all the dirty things you like to watch,
(you certainly know what I mean) it will completely ruin your reputation.
However, don't worry, there is still a way to resolve this:
You need to carry out a $1290 USD transfer to my wallet (equivalent amount in bitcoins depending on exchange rate at the moment of funds transfer),
hence upon receiving the transaction, I will proceed with deleting all the filthy videos with you in main role.
Afterwards, we can forget about this unpleasant accident. Furthermore, I guarantee that all the malicious software will also be erased from your devices and accounts.
Mark my words, I never lie.
That is a great bargain with a low price, I assure you, because I have spent a lot of effort while recording
and tracking down all your activities and dirty deeds during a long period of time.
In case if you have no idea how to buy and transfer bitcoins - feel free to check the related info on the internet.
Here is my bitcoin wallet for your reference: 1LrBGezKti4m2cov7CKuurLnCfQvjp2o1A
From now on, you have only 48 hours and countdown has started once you opened this very email (in other words, 2 days).
The following list contains things you should definitely abstain from doing or even attempting:
> Abstain from trying to reply this email (since the email is generated inside your inbox alongside with return address).
> Abstain from trying to call or report to police or any other security services. In addition, it's a bad idea if you want to share it with your friends,
hoping they would help. If I happen to find out (knowing my awesome skills, it can be done effortlessly,
because I have all your devices and accounts under my control and unceasing observation) - kinky videos of yours will be share to public the same day.
> Abstain from trying to look for me - that would not lead anywhere either. Cryptocurrency transactions are absolutely anonymous and cannot be tracked.
> Abstain from reinstalling your OS on devices or throwing them away. That would not solve the problem as well,
since all your personal videos are already uploaded and stored at remote servers.
Things you may be confused about:
> That your funds transfer won't be delivered to me.
Chill, I can track down any transactions right away, so upon funds transfer I will receive a notification as well,
since I still control your devices (my trojan virus has ability of controlling all processes remotely, just like TeamViewer).
> That I am going to share your dirty videos after receiving money transfer from you.
Here you need to trust me, because there is absolutely no point to still bother you after receiving money.
Moreover, if I really wanted all those videos would be available to public long time ago!
I believe we can still handle this situation on fair terms!
Here is my last advice to you... in future you better ensure you stay away from this kind of situations!
My advice - don't forget to regularly update your passwords to feel completely secure.
13 mai 2022
You have an outstanding payment. Debt settlement required.
Hello!
Unfortunately, I have some unpleasant news for you.
Roughly several months ago I have managed to get a complete access to all devices that you use to browse internet.
Afterwards, I have proceeded with monitoring all internet activities of yours.
You can check out the sequence of events summarize below:
Previously I have bought from hackers a special access to various email accounts (currently, it is rather a straightforward thing that can be done online).
Clearly, I could effortlessly log in to your email account as well (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
One week after that, I proceeded with installing a Trojan virus in Operating Systems of all your devices, which are used by you to login to your email.
Actually, that was rather a simple thing to do (because you have opened a few links from your inbox emails previously).
Genius is in simplicity. ( ~_^)
Thanks to that software I can get access to all controllers inside your devices (such as your video camera, microphone, keyboard etc.).
I could easily download all your data, photos, web browsing history and other information to my servers.
I can access all your social networks accounts, messengers, emails, including chat history as well as contacts list.
This virus of mine unceasingly keeps refreshing its signatures (since it is controlled by a driver), and as result stays unnoticed by antivirus software.
Hereby, I believe by this time it is already clear for you why I was never detected until I sent this letter...
While compiling all the information related to you, I have also found out that you are a true fan and frequent visitor of adult websites.
You truly enjoy browsing through porn websites, while watching arousing videos and experiencing an unimaginable satisfaction.
To be honest, I could not resist but to record some of your kinky solo sessions and compiled them in several videos, which demonstrate you masturbating and cumming in the end.
If you still don't trust me, all it takes me is several mouse clicks to distribute all those videos with your colleagues, friends and even relatives.
In addition, I can upload them online for entire public to access.
I truly believe, you absolutely don't want such things to occur, bearing in mind the kinky stuff exposed in those videos that you usually watch, (you definitely understand what I am trying to say) it will result in a complete disaster for you.
We can still resolve it in the following manner:
You perform a transfer of $1590 USD to me (a bitcoin equivalent based on the exchange rate during the funds transfer), so after I receive the transfer, I will straight away remove all those lecherous videos without hesitation.
Then we can pretend like it has never happened before. In addition, I assure that all the harmful software will be deactivated and removed from all devices of yours. Don't worry, I am a man of my word.
It is really a good deal with a considerably low the price, bearing in mind that I was monitoring your profile as well as traffic over an extended period.
If you still unaware about the purchase and transfer process of bitcoins - all you can do is find the necessary information online.
My bitcoin wallet is as follows: 1LzA9kzQkGDTYSfbbLE8gK5RAJ5ke32ntC
You are left with 48 hours and the countdown starts right after you open this email (2 days to be specific).
Don't forget to keep in mind and abstain from doing the following:
> Do not attempt to reply my email (this email was generated in your inbox together with the return address).
> Do not attempt to call police as well as other security services. Moreover, don't even think of sharing it with your friends. If I get to know about it (based on my skills, that would be very easy, since that I have all your systems under my control and constant monitoring) - your dirty video will become public without delay.
> Don't attempt searching for me - it is completely useless. Cryptocurrency transactions always remain anonymous.
> Don't attempt reinstalling the OS of your devices or even getting rid of them. It is meaningless too, because all your private videos are already been available on remote servers.
Things you should be concerned about:
> That I will not receive the funds transfer you make.
Relax, I will be able to track it immediately, after you complete the funds transfer, because I unceasingly monitor all activities that you do (trojan virus of mine can control remotely all processes, same as TeamViewer).
> That I will still distribute your videos after you have sent the money to me.
Believe me, it is pointless for me to proceed with troubling you after that. Besides that, if that really was my intention, it would happen long time ago!
It all will be settled on fair conditions and terms!
One last advice from me... Moving forward make sure you don't get involved in such type of incidents again!
My suggestion - make sure you change all your passwords as often as possible.
Unfortunately, I have some unpleasant news for you.
Roughly several months ago I have managed to get a complete access to all devices that you use to browse internet.
Afterwards, I have proceeded with monitoring all internet activities of yours.
You can check out the sequence of events summarize below:
Previously I have bought from hackers a special access to various email accounts (currently, it is rather a straightforward thing that can be done online).
Clearly, I could effortlessly log in to your email account as well (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
One week after that, I proceeded with installing a Trojan virus in Operating Systems of all your devices, which are used by you to login to your email.
Actually, that was rather a simple thing to do (because you have opened a few links from your inbox emails previously).
Genius is in simplicity. ( ~_^)
Thanks to that software I can get access to all controllers inside your devices (such as your video camera, microphone, keyboard etc.).
I could easily download all your data, photos, web browsing history and other information to my servers.
I can access all your social networks accounts, messengers, emails, including chat history as well as contacts list.
This virus of mine unceasingly keeps refreshing its signatures (since it is controlled by a driver), and as result stays unnoticed by antivirus software.
Hereby, I believe by this time it is already clear for you why I was never detected until I sent this letter...
While compiling all the information related to you, I have also found out that you are a true fan and frequent visitor of adult websites.
You truly enjoy browsing through porn websites, while watching arousing videos and experiencing an unimaginable satisfaction.
To be honest, I could not resist but to record some of your kinky solo sessions and compiled them in several videos, which demonstrate you masturbating and cumming in the end.
If you still don't trust me, all it takes me is several mouse clicks to distribute all those videos with your colleagues, friends and even relatives.
In addition, I can upload them online for entire public to access.
I truly believe, you absolutely don't want such things to occur, bearing in mind the kinky stuff exposed in those videos that you usually watch, (you definitely understand what I am trying to say) it will result in a complete disaster for you.
We can still resolve it in the following manner:
You perform a transfer of $1590 USD to me (a bitcoin equivalent based on the exchange rate during the funds transfer), so after I receive the transfer, I will straight away remove all those lecherous videos without hesitation.
Then we can pretend like it has never happened before. In addition, I assure that all the harmful software will be deactivated and removed from all devices of yours. Don't worry, I am a man of my word.
It is really a good deal with a considerably low the price, bearing in mind that I was monitoring your profile as well as traffic over an extended period.
If you still unaware about the purchase and transfer process of bitcoins - all you can do is find the necessary information online.
My bitcoin wallet is as follows: 1LzA9kzQkGDTYSfbbLE8gK5RAJ5ke32ntC
You are left with 48 hours and the countdown starts right after you open this email (2 days to be specific).
Don't forget to keep in mind and abstain from doing the following:
> Do not attempt to reply my email (this email was generated in your inbox together with the return address).
> Do not attempt to call police as well as other security services. Moreover, don't even think of sharing it with your friends. If I get to know about it (based on my skills, that would be very easy, since that I have all your systems under my control and constant monitoring) - your dirty video will become public without delay.
> Don't attempt searching for me - it is completely useless. Cryptocurrency transactions always remain anonymous.
> Don't attempt reinstalling the OS of your devices or even getting rid of them. It is meaningless too, because all your private videos are already been available on remote servers.
Things you should be concerned about:
> That I will not receive the funds transfer you make.
Relax, I will be able to track it immediately, after you complete the funds transfer, because I unceasingly monitor all activities that you do (trojan virus of mine can control remotely all processes, same as TeamViewer).
> That I will still distribute your videos after you have sent the money to me.
Believe me, it is pointless for me to proceed with troubling you after that. Besides that, if that really was my intention, it would happen long time ago!
It all will be settled on fair conditions and terms!
One last advice from me... Moving forward make sure you don't get involved in such type of incidents again!
My suggestion - make sure you change all your passwords as often as possible.
5 aprilie 2022
You have an outstanding payment.
Hello there!
Unfortunately, there are some bad news for you.
Around several months ago I have obtained access to your devices that you were using to browse internet.
Subsequently, I have proceeded with tracking down internet activities of yours.
Below, is the sequence of past events:
In the past, I have bought access from hackers to numerous email accounts (today, that is a very straightforward task that can be done online).
Clearly, I have effortlessly logged in to email account of yours (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
A week after that, I have managed to install Trojan virus to Operating Systems of all your devices that are used for email access.
Actually, that was quite simple (because you were clicking the links in inbox emails).
All smart things are quite straightforward. (>_<)
The software of mine allows me to access to all controllers in your devices, such as video camera, microphone and keyboard.
I have managed to download all your personal data, as well as web browsing history and photos to my servers.
I can access all messengers of yours, as well as emails, social networks, contacts list and even chat history.
My virus unceasingly refreshes its signatures (since it is driver-based), and hereby stays invisible for your antivirus.
So, by now you should already understand the reason why I remained unnoticed until this very moment...
While collecting your information, I have found out that you are also a huge fan of websites for adults.
You truly enjoy checking out porn websites and watching dirty videos, while having a lot of kinky fun.
I have recorded several kinky scenes of yours and montaged some videos, where you reach orgasms while passionately masturbating.
If you still doubt my serious intentions, it only takes couple mouse clicks to share your videos with your friends, relatives and even colleagues.
It is also not a problem for me to allow those vids for access of public as well.
I truly believe, you would not want this to occur, understanding how special are the videos you love watching, (you are clearly aware of that) all that stuff can result in a real disaster for you.
Let's resolve it like this:
All you need is $1710 USD transfer to my account (bitcoin equivalent based on exchange rate during your transfer), and after the transaction is successful, I will proceed to delete all that kinky stuff without delay.
Afterwards, we can pretend that we have never met before. In addition, I assure you that all the harmful software will be deleted from all your devices. Be sure, I keep my promises.
That is quite a fair deal with a low price, bearing in mind that I have spent a lot of effort to go through your profile and traffic for a long period.
If you are unaware how to buy and send bitcoins - it can be easily fixed by searching all related information online.
Below is bitcoin wallet of mine: 1PQfyHsqnU1mpQHgbgNsbAxDLw5u2mgqgb
You are given not more than 48 hours after you have opened this email (2 days to be precise).
Below is the list of actions that you should not attempt doing:
> Do not attempt to reply my email (the email in your inbox was created by me together with return address).
> Do not attempt to call police or any other security services. Moreover, don't even think to share this with friends of yours. Once I find that out (make no doubt about it, I can do that effortlessly, bearing in mind that I have full control over all your systems) - the video of yours will become available to public immediately.
> Do not attempt to search for me - there is completely no point in that. All cryptocurrency transactions remain anonymous at all times.
> Do not attempt reinstalling the OS on devices of yours or get rid of them. It is meaningless too, because all your videos are already available at remote servers.
Below is the list of things you don't need to be concerned about:
> That I will not receive the money you transferred.
- Don't you worry, I can still track it, after the transaction is successfully completed, because I still monitor all your activities (trojan virus of mine includes a remote-control option, just like TeamViewer).
> That I still will make your videos available to public after your money transfer is complete.
- Believe me, it is meaningless for me to keep on making your life complicated. If I indeed wanted to make it happen, it would happen long time ago!
Everything will be carried out based on fairness!
Before I forget...moving forward try not to get involved in this kind of situations anymore!
An advice from me - regularly change all the passwords to your accounts.
Unfortunately, there are some bad news for you.
Around several months ago I have obtained access to your devices that you were using to browse internet.
Subsequently, I have proceeded with tracking down internet activities of yours.
Below, is the sequence of past events:
In the past, I have bought access from hackers to numerous email accounts (today, that is a very straightforward task that can be done online).
Clearly, I have effortlessly logged in to email account of yours (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
A week after that, I have managed to install Trojan virus to Operating Systems of all your devices that are used for email access.
Actually, that was quite simple (because you were clicking the links in inbox emails).
All smart things are quite straightforward. (>_<)
The software of mine allows me to access to all controllers in your devices, such as video camera, microphone and keyboard.
I have managed to download all your personal data, as well as web browsing history and photos to my servers.
I can access all messengers of yours, as well as emails, social networks, contacts list and even chat history.
My virus unceasingly refreshes its signatures (since it is driver-based), and hereby stays invisible for your antivirus.
So, by now you should already understand the reason why I remained unnoticed until this very moment...
While collecting your information, I have found out that you are also a huge fan of websites for adults.
You truly enjoy checking out porn websites and watching dirty videos, while having a lot of kinky fun.
I have recorded several kinky scenes of yours and montaged some videos, where you reach orgasms while passionately masturbating.
If you still doubt my serious intentions, it only takes couple mouse clicks to share your videos with your friends, relatives and even colleagues.
It is also not a problem for me to allow those vids for access of public as well.
I truly believe, you would not want this to occur, understanding how special are the videos you love watching, (you are clearly aware of that) all that stuff can result in a real disaster for you.
Let's resolve it like this:
All you need is $1710 USD transfer to my account (bitcoin equivalent based on exchange rate during your transfer), and after the transaction is successful, I will proceed to delete all that kinky stuff without delay.
Afterwards, we can pretend that we have never met before. In addition, I assure you that all the harmful software will be deleted from all your devices. Be sure, I keep my promises.
That is quite a fair deal with a low price, bearing in mind that I have spent a lot of effort to go through your profile and traffic for a long period.
If you are unaware how to buy and send bitcoins - it can be easily fixed by searching all related information online.
Below is bitcoin wallet of mine: 1PQfyHsqnU1mpQHgbgNsbAxDLw5u2mgqgb
You are given not more than 48 hours after you have opened this email (2 days to be precise).
Below is the list of actions that you should not attempt doing:
> Do not attempt to reply my email (the email in your inbox was created by me together with return address).
> Do not attempt to call police or any other security services. Moreover, don't even think to share this with friends of yours. Once I find that out (make no doubt about it, I can do that effortlessly, bearing in mind that I have full control over all your systems) - the video of yours will become available to public immediately.
> Do not attempt to search for me - there is completely no point in that. All cryptocurrency transactions remain anonymous at all times.
> Do not attempt reinstalling the OS on devices of yours or get rid of them. It is meaningless too, because all your videos are already available at remote servers.
Below is the list of things you don't need to be concerned about:
> That I will not receive the money you transferred.
- Don't you worry, I can still track it, after the transaction is successfully completed, because I still monitor all your activities (trojan virus of mine includes a remote-control option, just like TeamViewer).
> That I still will make your videos available to public after your money transfer is complete.
- Believe me, it is meaningless for me to keep on making your life complicated. If I indeed wanted to make it happen, it would happen long time ago!
Everything will be carried out based on fairness!
Before I forget...moving forward try not to get involved in this kind of situations anymore!
An advice from me - regularly change all the passwords to your accounts.
22 martie 2022
21 ianuarie 2022
Don't forget to pay the tax within 2 days!
Hi. How are you?
I know, it's unpleasant to start the conversation with bad news, but I have no choice.
Few months ago, I have gained access to your devices that used by you for internet browsing.
Afterwards, I could track down all your internet activities.
Here is the history of how it could become possible:
At first, I purchased from hackers the access to multiple email accounts (nowadays, it is a really simple thing to do online).
As result, I could easily log in to your email account (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
One week later, I installed Trojan virus in Operating Systems of all devices of yours, which you use to open email.
Frankly speaking, it was rather straightforward (since you were opening the links from your inbox emails).
Everything ingenious is quite simple. (0_o)!
My software enables me with access to all controllers inside devices of yours, like microphone, keyboard and video camera.
I could easily download to my servers all your private info, including the history of web browsing and photos.
I can effortlessly gain access to all your messengers, social networks accounts, emails, contact list as well as chat history.
Virus of mine constantly keeps refreshing its signatures (because it is driver-based), and as result remains unnoticed by your antivirus.
Hence, you can already guess why I stayed undetected all this while.
As I was gathering information about you, I couldn't help but notice that you are also a true fan of adult-content websites.
You actually love visiting porn sites and browsing through kinky videos, while pleasuring yourself.
I could make a few dirty records with you in the main focus and montaged several videos showing the way you reach orgasm while masturbating with joy.
If you are still uncertain regarding the seriousness of my intentions,
it only requires several mouse clicks for me to forward your videos to all your relatives, as well as friends and colleagues.
I can also make those vids become accessible by public.
I honestly think that you do not really want that to happen, considering the peculiarity of videos you like to watch,
(you obviously know what I mean) all that kinky content can become a reason of serious troubles for you.
However, we can still resolve this situation in the following manner:
Everything you are required to do is a single transfer of $1340 USD to my account (or amount equivalent to bitcoin depending on exchange rate at the moment of transfer),
and once the transaction is complete, I will straight away remove all the dirty content exposing you.
After that, you can even forget that you have come across me. Moreover, I swear that all the harmful software will be removed from all devices of yours as well.
Make no doubt that I will fulfill my part.
This is really a great deal that comes at a reasonable price, given that I have used quite a lot of energy to check your profile as well as traffic over an extended period of time.
If you have no idea about bitcoin purchase process - it can be straightforwardly done by getting all the necessary information online.
Here is my bitcoin wallet provided below: 1JfnsTBvRQYNvzxYFTQBtEUgojmPy2vd6F
You should complete the abovementioned transfer within 48 hours (2 days) after opening this email.
The following list contains actions you should avoid attempting:
#Do not try replying my email (email in your inbox was generated by me alongside with return email address).
#Do not try calling police as well as other security forces. In addition, abstain from sharing this story with your friends.
After I find out (be sure, I can easily do that, given that I keep complete control of all your devices) - your kinky video will end up being available to public right away.
#Do not try searching for me - there is absolutely no reason to do that. Moreover, all transactions in cryptocurrency are always anonymous.
#Do not try reinstalling the OS on your devices or throwing them away. It is pointless as well, since all your videos have already been uploaded to remote servers.
The following list contains things you should not be worried about:
#That your money won't reach my account.
- Rest assured, the transactions can be tracked, hence once the transaction is complete,
I will know about it, because I continuously observe all your activities (my trojan virus allows me to control remotely your devices, same as TeamViewer).
#That I still will share your kinky videos to public after you complete money transfer.
- Trust me, it's pointless for me to continue troubling your life. If I really wanted, I would make it happen already!
Let's make this deal in a fair manner!
Owh, one more thing...in future it is best that you don't involve yourself in similar situations any longer!
One last advice from me - recurrently change all your passwords from all accounts.
I know, it's unpleasant to start the conversation with bad news, but I have no choice.
Few months ago, I have gained access to your devices that used by you for internet browsing.
Afterwards, I could track down all your internet activities.
Here is the history of how it could become possible:
At first, I purchased from hackers the access to multiple email accounts (nowadays, it is a really simple thing to do online).
As result, I could easily log in to your email account (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
One week later, I installed Trojan virus in Operating Systems of all devices of yours, which you use to open email.
Frankly speaking, it was rather straightforward (since you were opening the links from your inbox emails).
Everything ingenious is quite simple. (0_o)!
My software enables me with access to all controllers inside devices of yours, like microphone, keyboard and video camera.
I could easily download to my servers all your private info, including the history of web browsing and photos.
I can effortlessly gain access to all your messengers, social networks accounts, emails, contact list as well as chat history.
Virus of mine constantly keeps refreshing its signatures (because it is driver-based), and as result remains unnoticed by your antivirus.
Hence, you can already guess why I stayed undetected all this while.
As I was gathering information about you, I couldn't help but notice that you are also a true fan of adult-content websites.
You actually love visiting porn sites and browsing through kinky videos, while pleasuring yourself.
I could make a few dirty records with you in the main focus and montaged several videos showing the way you reach orgasm while masturbating with joy.
If you are still uncertain regarding the seriousness of my intentions,
it only requires several mouse clicks for me to forward your videos to all your relatives, as well as friends and colleagues.
I can also make those vids become accessible by public.
I honestly think that you do not really want that to happen, considering the peculiarity of videos you like to watch,
(you obviously know what I mean) all that kinky content can become a reason of serious troubles for you.
However, we can still resolve this situation in the following manner:
Everything you are required to do is a single transfer of $1340 USD to my account (or amount equivalent to bitcoin depending on exchange rate at the moment of transfer),
and once the transaction is complete, I will straight away remove all the dirty content exposing you.
After that, you can even forget that you have come across me. Moreover, I swear that all the harmful software will be removed from all devices of yours as well.
Make no doubt that I will fulfill my part.
This is really a great deal that comes at a reasonable price, given that I have used quite a lot of energy to check your profile as well as traffic over an extended period of time.
If you have no idea about bitcoin purchase process - it can be straightforwardly done by getting all the necessary information online.
Here is my bitcoin wallet provided below: 1JfnsTBvRQYNvzxYFTQBtEUgojmPy2vd6F
You should complete the abovementioned transfer within 48 hours (2 days) after opening this email.
The following list contains actions you should avoid attempting:
#Do not try replying my email (email in your inbox was generated by me alongside with return email address).
#Do not try calling police as well as other security forces. In addition, abstain from sharing this story with your friends.
After I find out (be sure, I can easily do that, given that I keep complete control of all your devices) - your kinky video will end up being available to public right away.
#Do not try searching for me - there is absolutely no reason to do that. Moreover, all transactions in cryptocurrency are always anonymous.
#Do not try reinstalling the OS on your devices or throwing them away. It is pointless as well, since all your videos have already been uploaded to remote servers.
The following list contains things you should not be worried about:
#That your money won't reach my account.
- Rest assured, the transactions can be tracked, hence once the transaction is complete,
I will know about it, because I continuously observe all your activities (my trojan virus allows me to control remotely your devices, same as TeamViewer).
#That I still will share your kinky videos to public after you complete money transfer.
- Trust me, it's pointless for me to continue troubling your life. If I really wanted, I would make it happen already!
Let's make this deal in a fair manner!
Owh, one more thing...in future it is best that you don't involve yourself in similar situations any longer!
One last advice from me - recurrently change all your passwords from all accounts.
1 noiembrie 2021
You have an outstanding payment.
Hello there!
Unfortunately, there are some bad news for you.
Around several months ago I have obtained access to your devices that you were using to browse internet.
Subsequently, I have proceeded with tracking down internet activities of yours.
Below, is the sequence of past events:
In the past, I have bought access from hackers to numerous email accounts (today, that is a very straightforward task that can be done online).
Clearly, I have effortlessly logged in to email account of yours (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
A week after that, I have managed to install Trojan virus to Operating Systems of all your devices that are used for email access.
Actually, that was quite simple (because you were clicking the links in inbox emails).
All smart things are quite straightforward. (>_<)
The software of mine allows me to access to all controllers in your devices, such as video camera, microphone and keyboard.
I have managed to download all your personal data, as well as web browsing history and photos to my servers.
I can access all messengers of yours, as well as emails, social networks, contacts list and even chat history.
My virus unceasingly refreshes its signatures (since it is driver-based), and hereby stays invisible for your antivirus.
So, by now you should already understand the reason why I remained unnoticed until this very moment...
While collecting your information, I have found out that you are also a huge fan of websites for adults.
You truly enjoy checking out porn websites and watching dirty videos, while having a lot of kinky fun.
I have recorded several kinky scenes of yours and montaged some videos, where you reach orgasms while passionately masturbating.
If you still doubt my serious intentions, it only takes couple mouse clicks to share your videos with your friends, relatives and even colleagues.
It is also not a problem for me to allow those vids for access of public as well.
I truly believe, you would not want this to occur, understanding how special are the videos you love watching, (you are clearly aware of that) all that stuff can result in a real disaster for you.
Let's resolve it like this:
All you need is $1550 USD transfer to my account (bitcoin equivalent based on exchange rate during your transfer), and after the transaction is successful, I will proceed to delete all that kinky stuff without delay.
Afterwards, we can pretend that we have never met before. In addition, I assure you that all the harmful software will be deleted from all your devices. Be sure, I keep my promises.
That is quite a fair deal with a low price, bearing in mind that I have spent a lot of effort to go through your profile and traffic for a long period.
If you are unaware how to buy and send bitcoins - it can be easily fixed by searching all related information online.
Below is bitcoin wallet of mine: 1BwDYXp1YCa2NLfGiF5Gfnkmgf61MqupHb
You are given not more than 48 hours after you have opened this email (2 days to be precise).
Below is the list of actions that you should not attempt doing:
> Do not attempt to reply my email (the email in your inbox was created by me together with return address).
> Do not attempt to call police or any other security services. Moreover, don't even think to share this with friends of yours. Once I find that out (make no doubt about it, I can do that effortlessly, bearing in mind that I have full control over all your systems) - the video of yours will become available to public immediately.
> Do not attempt to search for me - there is completely no point in that. All cryptocurrency transactions remain anonymous at all times.
> Do not attempt reinstalling the OS on devices of yours or get rid of them. It is meaningless too, because all your videos are already available at remote servers.
Below is the list of things you don't need to be concerned about:
> That I will not receive the money you transferred.
- Don't you worry, I can still track it, after the transaction is successfully completed, because I still monitor all your activities (trojan virus of mine includes a remote-control option, just like TeamViewer).
> That I still will make your videos available to public after your money transfer is complete.
- Believe me, it is meaningless for me to keep on making your life complicated. If I indeed wanted to make it happen, it would happen long time ago!
Everything will be carried out based on fairness!
Before I forget...moving forward try not to get involved in this kind of situations anymore!
An advice from me - regularly change all the passwords to your accounts.
Unfortunately, there are some bad news for you.
Around several months ago I have obtained access to your devices that you were using to browse internet.
Subsequently, I have proceeded with tracking down internet activities of yours.
Below, is the sequence of past events:
In the past, I have bought access from hackers to numerous email accounts (today, that is a very straightforward task that can be done online).
Clearly, I have effortlessly logged in to email account of yours (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
A week after that, I have managed to install Trojan virus to Operating Systems of all your devices that are used for email access.
Actually, that was quite simple (because you were clicking the links in inbox emails).
All smart things are quite straightforward. (>_<)
The software of mine allows me to access to all controllers in your devices, such as video camera, microphone and keyboard.
I have managed to download all your personal data, as well as web browsing history and photos to my servers.
I can access all messengers of yours, as well as emails, social networks, contacts list and even chat history.
My virus unceasingly refreshes its signatures (since it is driver-based), and hereby stays invisible for your antivirus.
So, by now you should already understand the reason why I remained unnoticed until this very moment...
While collecting your information, I have found out that you are also a huge fan of websites for adults.
You truly enjoy checking out porn websites and watching dirty videos, while having a lot of kinky fun.
I have recorded several kinky scenes of yours and montaged some videos, where you reach orgasms while passionately masturbating.
If you still doubt my serious intentions, it only takes couple mouse clicks to share your videos with your friends, relatives and even colleagues.
It is also not a problem for me to allow those vids for access of public as well.
I truly believe, you would not want this to occur, understanding how special are the videos you love watching, (you are clearly aware of that) all that stuff can result in a real disaster for you.
Let's resolve it like this:
All you need is $1550 USD transfer to my account (bitcoin equivalent based on exchange rate during your transfer), and after the transaction is successful, I will proceed to delete all that kinky stuff without delay.
Afterwards, we can pretend that we have never met before. In addition, I assure you that all the harmful software will be deleted from all your devices. Be sure, I keep my promises.
That is quite a fair deal with a low price, bearing in mind that I have spent a lot of effort to go through your profile and traffic for a long period.
If you are unaware how to buy and send bitcoins - it can be easily fixed by searching all related information online.
Below is bitcoin wallet of mine: 1BwDYXp1YCa2NLfGiF5Gfnkmgf61MqupHb
You are given not more than 48 hours after you have opened this email (2 days to be precise).
Below is the list of actions that you should not attempt doing:
> Do not attempt to reply my email (the email in your inbox was created by me together with return address).
> Do not attempt to call police or any other security services. Moreover, don't even think to share this with friends of yours. Once I find that out (make no doubt about it, I can do that effortlessly, bearing in mind that I have full control over all your systems) - the video of yours will become available to public immediately.
> Do not attempt to search for me - there is completely no point in that. All cryptocurrency transactions remain anonymous at all times.
> Do not attempt reinstalling the OS on devices of yours or get rid of them. It is meaningless too, because all your videos are already available at remote servers.
Below is the list of things you don't need to be concerned about:
> That I will not receive the money you transferred.
- Don't you worry, I can still track it, after the transaction is successfully completed, because I still monitor all your activities (trojan virus of mine includes a remote-control option, just like TeamViewer).
> That I still will make your videos available to public after your money transfer is complete.
- Believe me, it is meaningless for me to keep on making your life complicated. If I indeed wanted to make it happen, it would happen long time ago!
Everything will be carried out based on fairness!
Before I forget...moving forward try not to get involved in this kind of situations anymore!
An advice from me - regularly change all the passwords to your accounts.
16 octombrie 2021
You have an outstanding payment.
Hello there!
Unfortunately, there are some bad news for you.
Around several months ago I have obtained access to your devices that you were using to browse internet.
Subsequently, I have proceeded with tracking down internet activities of yours.
Below, is the sequence of past events:
In the past, I have bought access from hackers to numerous email accounts (today, that is a very straightforward task that can be done online).
Clearly, I have effortlessly logged in to email account of yours (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
A week after that, I have managed to install Trojan virus to Operating Systems of all your devices that are used for email access.
Actually, that was quite simple (because you were clicking the links in inbox emails).
All smart things are quite straightforward. (>_<)
The software of mine allows me to access to all controllers in your devices, such as video camera, microphone and keyboard.
I have managed to download all your personal data, as well as web browsing history and photos to my servers.
I can access all messengers of yours, as well as emails, social networks, contacts list and even chat history.
My virus unceasingly refreshes its signatures (since it is driver-based), and hereby stays invisible for your antivirus.
So, by now you should already understand the reason why I remained unnoticed until this very moment...
While collecting your information, I have found out that you are also a huge fan of websites for adults.
You truly enjoy checking out porn websites and watching dirty videos, while having a lot of kinky fun.
I have recorded several kinky scenes of yours and montaged some videos, where you reach orgasms while passionately masturbating.
If you still doubt my serious intentions, it only takes couple mouse clicks to share your videos with your friends, relatives and even colleagues.
It is also not a problem for me to allow those vids for access of public as well.
I truly believe, you would not want this to occur, understanding how special are the videos you love watching, (you are clearly aware of that) all that stuff can result in a real disaster for you.
Let's resolve it like this:
All you need is $1450 USD transfer to my account (bitcoin equivalent based on exchange rate during your transfer), and after the transaction is successful, I will proceed to delete all that kinky stuff without delay.
Afterwards, we can pretend that we have never met before. In addition, I assure you that all the harmful software will be deleted from all your devices. Be sure, I keep my promises.
That is quite a fair deal with a low price, bearing in mind that I have spent a lot of effort to go through your profile and traffic for a long period.
If you are unaware how to buy and send bitcoins - it can be easily fixed by searching all related information online.
Below is bitcoin wallet of mine: 15KquhG7RGkyXvEVT1aXLgPt4qgBEVe8rN
You are given not more than 48 hours after you have opened this email (2 days to be precise).
Below is the list of actions that you should not attempt doing:
> Do not attempt to reply my email (the email in your inbox was created by me together with return address).
> Do not attempt to call police or any other security services. Moreover, don't even think to share this with friends of yours. Once I find that out (make no doubt about it, I can do that effortlessly, bearing in mind that I have full control over all your systems) - the video of yours will become available to public immediately.
> Do not attempt to search for me - there is completely no point in that. All cryptocurrency transactions remain anonymous at all times.
> Do not attempt reinstalling the OS on devices of yours or get rid of them. It is meaningless too, because all your videos are already available at remote servers.
Below is the list of things you don't need to be concerned about:
> That I will not receive the money you transferred.
- Don't you worry, I can still track it, after the transaction is successfully completed, because I still monitor all your activities (trojan virus of mine includes a remote-control option, just like TeamViewer).
> That I still will make your videos available to public after your money transfer is complete.
- Believe me, it is meaningless for me to keep on making your life complicated. If I indeed wanted to make it happen, it would happen long time ago!
Everything will be carried out based on fairness!
Before I forget...moving forward try not to get involved in this kind of situations anymore!
An advice from me - regularly change all the passwords to your accounts.
Unfortunately, there are some bad news for you.
Around several months ago I have obtained access to your devices that you were using to browse internet.
Subsequently, I have proceeded with tracking down internet activities of yours.
Below, is the sequence of past events:
In the past, I have bought access from hackers to numerous email accounts (today, that is a very straightforward task that can be done online).
Clearly, I have effortlessly logged in to email account of yours (alexandra_bocaniciu.nimic@blogger.com).
A week after that, I have managed to install Trojan virus to Operating Systems of all your devices that are used for email access.
Actually, that was quite simple (because you were clicking the links in inbox emails).
All smart things are quite straightforward. (>_<)
The software of mine allows me to access to all controllers in your devices, such as video camera, microphone and keyboard.
I have managed to download all your personal data, as well as web browsing history and photos to my servers.
I can access all messengers of yours, as well as emails, social networks, contacts list and even chat history.
My virus unceasingly refreshes its signatures (since it is driver-based), and hereby stays invisible for your antivirus.
So, by now you should already understand the reason why I remained unnoticed until this very moment...
While collecting your information, I have found out that you are also a huge fan of websites for adults.
You truly enjoy checking out porn websites and watching dirty videos, while having a lot of kinky fun.
I have recorded several kinky scenes of yours and montaged some videos, where you reach orgasms while passionately masturbating.
If you still doubt my serious intentions, it only takes couple mouse clicks to share your videos with your friends, relatives and even colleagues.
It is also not a problem for me to allow those vids for access of public as well.
I truly believe, you would not want this to occur, understanding how special are the videos you love watching, (you are clearly aware of that) all that stuff can result in a real disaster for you.
Let's resolve it like this:
All you need is $1450 USD transfer to my account (bitcoin equivalent based on exchange rate during your transfer), and after the transaction is successful, I will proceed to delete all that kinky stuff without delay.
Afterwards, we can pretend that we have never met before. In addition, I assure you that all the harmful software will be deleted from all your devices. Be sure, I keep my promises.
That is quite a fair deal with a low price, bearing in mind that I have spent a lot of effort to go through your profile and traffic for a long period.
If you are unaware how to buy and send bitcoins - it can be easily fixed by searching all related information online.
Below is bitcoin wallet of mine: 15KquhG7RGkyXvEVT1aXLgPt4qgBEVe8rN
You are given not more than 48 hours after you have opened this email (2 days to be precise).
Below is the list of actions that you should not attempt doing:
> Do not attempt to reply my email (the email in your inbox was created by me together with return address).
> Do not attempt to call police or any other security services. Moreover, don't even think to share this with friends of yours. Once I find that out (make no doubt about it, I can do that effortlessly, bearing in mind that I have full control over all your systems) - the video of yours will become available to public immediately.
> Do not attempt to search for me - there is completely no point in that. All cryptocurrency transactions remain anonymous at all times.
> Do not attempt reinstalling the OS on devices of yours or get rid of them. It is meaningless too, because all your videos are already available at remote servers.
Below is the list of things you don't need to be concerned about:
> That I will not receive the money you transferred.
- Don't you worry, I can still track it, after the transaction is successfully completed, because I still monitor all your activities (trojan virus of mine includes a remote-control option, just like TeamViewer).
> That I still will make your videos available to public after your money transfer is complete.
- Believe me, it is meaningless for me to keep on making your life complicated. If I indeed wanted to make it happen, it would happen long time ago!
Everything will be carried out based on fairness!
Before I forget...moving forward try not to get involved in this kind of situations anymore!
An advice from me - regularly change all the passwords to your accounts.
11 ianuarie 2013
Daily dose
Daily dose of coffee. Daily dose of coke. Daily dose of chocolate. Daily dose of tobacco. Daily dose of alcohol.
Daily dose of Facebook, Youtube, Twitter, 9Gag. Daily dose of friends, funny cat-videos, latest gossip, overestimated jokes. Daily dose of music, movies and TV series. Daily dose of books, newspapers and magazines.
Daily dose of fun, laughter, smiles. Daily dose of nerves, anger, anxiety. Daily dose of ignorance.
Daily dose of insecurities, questions, doubts. Daily dose of sorrow.
And occasionally love.
Daily dose of Facebook, Youtube, Twitter, 9Gag. Daily dose of friends, funny cat-videos, latest gossip, overestimated jokes. Daily dose of music, movies and TV series. Daily dose of books, newspapers and magazines.
Daily dose of fun, laughter, smiles. Daily dose of nerves, anger, anxiety. Daily dose of ignorance.
Daily dose of insecurities, questions, doubts. Daily dose of sorrow.
And occasionally love.
13 septembrie 2012
Iubireeee, hopheeei...?
Iubire?
Nu. Nu imi place cum suna, sau poate nu sunt obisnuita cu acest cuvant. Dragoste? Nu, nici atat. Nu stiu cum sa o numesc. Senzatia aia ca o persoane e totul pentru tine, ca parca e facuta special pentru tine, ai sta non-stop cu ea. Si ai face orice pentru asta, pentru ea.
E ciudat, pentru ca niciodata nu te astepti la asta. Vine de unde nu te astepti, te ia pe nepregatite, si cand incepi sa te intrebi de unde a aparut iti dai seama ca a fost mereu acolo, deghizata.
E ciudat. Esti fericita, cat se poate de fericita. Nu iti vine sa crezi ca s-a intamplat, nu intelegi cum, de ce? De ce acum? De ce abia acum? Atat de tarziu. Mai ai atat de putin timp... Nu vrei sa se termine, nu poti sa intelegi ca ceva atat de frumos poate dura atat de putin. Iti vine sa plangi. Te enervezi, te enervezi pe toti fraierii aia care se baga in relatii doar ca sa isi schimbe statusul de pe facebook; te enervezi si pe aia care isi posteaza iubirea peste tot, aia nu e iubire; a da, si aia care tocmai sarbatoresc aniversarea de 1/2/5/768 de ani impreuna. Te enerveaza toata lumea. Si in momentul ala iti suna telefonul. Te uiti cine e, si brusc, involuntar, zambesti. Parca ai innebunit. Treci de la o stare la alta in cateva momente. E de ajuns o amintire, o melodie, un nume, si dispozitia ta poate face un flip de 180 de grade.
Nu ai mai patit niciodata asta, nu asa. Si esti stresata, pentru ca brusc cineva inseamna atat de mult pentru tine, atat de mult incat te sperie. Te sperie atata implicare. Si mai tare te sperie reciprocitatea sentimentului. E prea mult, prea deodata. Prea multa fericire. Iti e groaznic de frica de momentul ala cand se va termina tot. Si stii ca se aproprie, oricat de mult ati vrea sa il amanati, e teribil de aproape, si vine, se grabeste sa dea peste voi.
E ca si cand ati fugi de un tren. E atat de aproape incat ii simti caldura motorului in spate, simti cum tremura pamantul sub vibratiile vitezei. Voi alergati, tinandu-va de mana. Cu ultimele puteri, el te trage putin in fata, mai castigati cateva secunde.
Da, am ajuns la stadiul in care o zi in plus impreuna inseamna enorm de mult. Timpul a avut din totdeauna o problema cu mine, niciodata nu ne-am sincronizat, de fiecare data ma lua prin surprindere, iar cand ma dezmeticeam era deja tarziu (mda, ha.ha.). Dar chiar atat de nesimtit nu a mai fost niciodata. Chiar ata de definitiv si irevocabil. Cateaodata asa l-as injura, asa l-as bate.
Si totusi, daca...?
NU! Asta nu se poate, pur si simplu nu, e imposibil. Nu merge asa, ai vazut. Nu poti face asta si gata. Punct.
Si a trecut trenul...
siiubirea a ramas nimic.
a da, un aeroport.
Nu. Nu imi place cum suna, sau poate nu sunt obisnuita cu acest cuvant. Dragoste? Nu, nici atat. Nu stiu cum sa o numesc. Senzatia aia ca o persoane e totul pentru tine, ca parca e facuta special pentru tine, ai sta non-stop cu ea. Si ai face orice pentru asta, pentru ea.
E ciudat, pentru ca niciodata nu te astepti la asta. Vine de unde nu te astepti, te ia pe nepregatite, si cand incepi sa te intrebi de unde a aparut iti dai seama ca a fost mereu acolo, deghizata.
E ciudat. Esti fericita, cat se poate de fericita. Nu iti vine sa crezi ca s-a intamplat, nu intelegi cum, de ce? De ce acum? De ce abia acum? Atat de tarziu. Mai ai atat de putin timp... Nu vrei sa se termine, nu poti sa intelegi ca ceva atat de frumos poate dura atat de putin. Iti vine sa plangi. Te enervezi, te enervezi pe toti fraierii aia care se baga in relatii doar ca sa isi schimbe statusul de pe facebook; te enervezi si pe aia care isi posteaza iubirea peste tot, aia nu e iubire; a da, si aia care tocmai sarbatoresc aniversarea de 1/2/5/768 de ani impreuna. Te enerveaza toata lumea. Si in momentul ala iti suna telefonul. Te uiti cine e, si brusc, involuntar, zambesti. Parca ai innebunit. Treci de la o stare la alta in cateva momente. E de ajuns o amintire, o melodie, un nume, si dispozitia ta poate face un flip de 180 de grade.
Nu ai mai patit niciodata asta, nu asa. Si esti stresata, pentru ca brusc cineva inseamna atat de mult pentru tine, atat de mult incat te sperie. Te sperie atata implicare. Si mai tare te sperie reciprocitatea sentimentului. E prea mult, prea deodata. Prea multa fericire. Iti e groaznic de frica de momentul ala cand se va termina tot. Si stii ca se aproprie, oricat de mult ati vrea sa il amanati, e teribil de aproape, si vine, se grabeste sa dea peste voi.
E ca si cand ati fugi de un tren. E atat de aproape incat ii simti caldura motorului in spate, simti cum tremura pamantul sub vibratiile vitezei. Voi alergati, tinandu-va de mana. Cu ultimele puteri, el te trage putin in fata, mai castigati cateva secunde.
Da, am ajuns la stadiul in care o zi in plus impreuna inseamna enorm de mult. Timpul a avut din totdeauna o problema cu mine, niciodata nu ne-am sincronizat, de fiecare data ma lua prin surprindere, iar cand ma dezmeticeam era deja tarziu (mda, ha.ha.). Dar chiar atat de nesimtit nu a mai fost niciodata. Chiar ata de definitiv si irevocabil. Cateaodata asa l-as injura, asa l-as bate.
Si totusi, daca...?
NU! Asta nu se poate, pur si simplu nu, e imposibil. Nu merge asa, ai vazut. Nu poti face asta si gata. Punct.
Si a trecut trenul...
si
a da, un aeroport.
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Nu inteleg de ce p**** m**** scriu despre asta acum? Acum ar trebui sa ma bucur de ultimele zile, sa ma bucur ca tocmai am mai castigat 2 zile impreuna, nu sa stau sa ma gandesc la...defapt sa nu ma gandesc la nimic. Am ajuns sa gandesc prea mult, si asta nu e bine, ma afecteaza pe prea multe planuri. Gata, deocamdata e ok, si, ca sa inchei intr-o nota optimista, o sa si fie ok, o sa se rezolve cumva si o sa fie ok. Am promis.
11 iunie 2012
Metafora
Esti in masina. Te grabesti. Nu stii unde sau de ce; probabil doar pentru ca iti place sa simți vântul rece prin geamul deschis. Se amesteca cu fumul de tigara. Fumezi; stii ca nu e bine, nici macar nu poti spune sincer ca iti place, dar nici nu admiti ca esti dependent; poate nici nu esti, fumezi doar din obisnuinta, din plictiseala, din nevoia gestului. Sau poate din lipsa. Fumezi pentru ca, in subconstientul tau ai nevoie de ceva, ceva ce substitui cu tigara. Nu stii ce; te gandesti: ai o viata pentru care stii ca te invidiaza multi. Esti in vacanta, intr-o vacanta continua in ultimele luni; iti conduci masina, pe care o iubesti mai mult decat orice, in viteza. Dar nu o viteza violenta, care necesita concentrare; intr-o viteza linistita, relaxanta, care iti permite sa iti dai frau liber gandurilor. Sau poate deja iti cunosti masina atat de bine încât nu mai e nevoie sa te gandesti propriu-zis la condus, a devenit instinctiv, ca mersul pe jos. Nu mai esti un copil care isi calculează atent fiecare pas, cu grija sa nu se impiedice. Ai ajuns sa mergi liber, sa alergi, fara sa te mai gandesti. Nu stii pentru cat timp vei mai putea continua așa, ai vrea ca toata viata ta sa fie ca si drumul asta, cu munti in fata, brazi in stânga si ocean in dreapta, marginit de 2 parapeti de 40 de cm. In urma nu mai conteaza ce lasi. Dar nici in fata nu stii ce te asteapta; te gandesti la drum, iti dorești sa se continue la nesfarsit. Acum totul e perfect. Arunci tigara pe geam, si o urmărești pentru cateva clipe in oglinda. Ce vrei tu defapt? Nici tu nu stii. Vrei sa stii. Asta e problema ta cea mai mare, vrei sa stii mereu ceva. Nu e vorba de invatatura, nici de educație, nici de o curiozitate din aia banala, mediatica. Si nu e nici nevoia aia de cunoaștere filosofica. Tu doar vrei sa stii ce se intampla cu tine, încotro gonesti cu masina in viteza, spre ce te îndrepti cu atâta nerăbdare inexplicabilă? Uneori iti dai seama ca nu e bine, uneori e mai bine sa nu stii. Vorba aia:"ce nu stii nu te afectează". Dar problema ta e ca faci ce faci si in final tot afli. Si uneori atunci simți ca se prabuseste totul, ca si cum 1000 de caramizi ar cădea peste tine. Pentru ca atunci, pentru cateva momente, realizezi cat ai fost de ignorant, cat de puțin stii in realitate. Si te doare, asta doare cel mai tare, sa iti dai seama cat de neputincios esti, cat de mic si neinsemnat. Atunci iti dai seama cat de putine poti face tu pentru a schimba ceva, chiar si in viata ta, in plan personal, nu exterior. Cat esti de incapabil in fata destinului, pentru ca orice ai face, la un moment dat totul se va rasturna si tot ce te-ai zbatut sa construiești se va prabusi gramada in cateva secunde. De asta acum cel mai mult iti dorești sa trăiești in prezent, sa prelungesti orice clipa la infinit, pentru ca nu se va întoarce niciodata; fiecare clipa e perfeca in felul ei, si tu acum iti dorești sa o savurezi la nesfarsit. Vrei sa nu mai vrei sa stii. Vrei sa te detasezi, daca s-ar putea, de tot, de toata existența ta; sa fii un fel de observator exterior al propriei vieții. Sa urmărești totul obiectiv si rece, sa fii capabil sa iei întotdeauna deciziile corecte gandind rational; sa nu mai existe sentimente. Cine are nevoie de sentimente? Sentimentele nu sunt nimic altceva decat slăbiciune. Vulnerabilitate. Prostie. O lume fara sentimente ar fi o lume mult mai buna. Intr-o lume fara sentimente nu ar exista suferinta, durere, invidie. Da, nu ar mai fi nici fericire, nici iubire. Dar ce e fericirea? Daca nu simți nimic, nu te doare nimic, nu poti spune ca esti fericit? Si iubirea...cine are nevoie de iubire? Cine are nevoie de dependenta voluntară de o alta persoana? Sau de responsabilitatea ei?
Lumea ar trebui sa fie mai plata. Sa fie ca si drumul asta, cu vântul care ți se amesteca prin par.
Iti mai aprinzi o tigara.
Lumea ar trebui sa fie mai plata. Sa fie ca si drumul asta, cu vântul care ți se amesteca prin par.
Iti mai aprinzi o tigara.
27 mai 2012
5 stages of a break-up
1 Denial
First phase. You're still in shock, and unable to see that this is really the end. You still hope that he will call and everything will be just fine.
2 Anger
You're starting to realise that he is quite determined in not calling. Now it's the time when you start calling him names inside your head, remembering every stupid thing he'd done throughout your relationship. Now you desperately want to break something.
3 Bargaining
This is the most tricky one, and it's probably the one where you'll send that drunk text or call him, hoping that if you give a little bit from yourself, he will stop being so stubborn, accept that he still has feelings for you, apologies, and everything would go back to normal.
4 Depression
If you have come to this, it means that your text, call or whatever didn't work; he still didn't want to be with you anymore. You start the endless "what if"s and start to blame yourself for everything and wonder what could have been. You start to remember every beautiful moment together. No, you remember every moment together and make it beautiful. (awww that time when he stopped in the middle of the street to tie his shoelaces...-for example). This is te longest and most difficult phase, but if you get past this, you're good to go.
5 Acceptance
You have finally come to terms with your situation. Congratulations, you are now free to go out, meet somebody new, and eventually repeat from stage 1.
First phase. You're still in shock, and unable to see that this is really the end. You still hope that he will call and everything will be just fine.
2 Anger
You're starting to realise that he is quite determined in not calling. Now it's the time when you start calling him names inside your head, remembering every stupid thing he'd done throughout your relationship. Now you desperately want to break something.
3 Bargaining
This is the most tricky one, and it's probably the one where you'll send that drunk text or call him, hoping that if you give a little bit from yourself, he will stop being so stubborn, accept that he still has feelings for you, apologies, and everything would go back to normal.
4 Depression
If you have come to this, it means that your text, call or whatever didn't work; he still didn't want to be with you anymore. You start the endless "what if"s and start to blame yourself for everything and wonder what could have been. You start to remember every beautiful moment together. No, you remember every moment together and make it beautiful. (awww that time when he stopped in the middle of the street to tie his shoelaces...-for example). This is te longest and most difficult phase, but if you get past this, you're good to go.
5 Acceptance
You have finally come to terms with your situation. Congratulations, you are now free to go out, meet somebody new, and eventually repeat from stage 1.
26 mai 2012
Uite-o!
Uite-o! Ea e? Nu iti dai seama inca, dar esti aproape sigur. O vezi pe strada, departe, venind in direcția ta. E singura? Da, sigur ea e. Ii recunosti mersul, parul, felul de a-si tine geanta. Da, era draguta; a fost frumos. Inca mai crezi ca a exagerat atunci, ca ai avut dreptate. Oare cum ar fi fost daca ai fi renunțat totusi puțin la orgoliu? Deja e prea tarziu. O saluti, iti zambete, ii zambesti. Avea un zambet frumos.
Il vezi. Ii recunosti de departe freza caracteristica, mersul lipsit de griji. Inca nu iti dai seama daca te-a vazut. Oare te saluta? Oare s-a mai gandit? Daca se gandea probabil te-ar fi sunat. Inca nu intelegi ce s-a intamplat, nu vrei sa intelegi ca lui ii pasa atat de puțin încât nu a mai zis nimic, niciodata. Se apropie. Oare se va opri sa iti spuna ceva? Oare ce mai face? Pare fericit. Uite-l, iti face cu mana. "Hey!". Zambesti; nu stii cum dar doar faptul ca l-ai vazut si te-a salutat te-a facut parca mai fericita. Pare ciudat, dar parca e o confirmare a faptului ca nu te-a uitat. Zambeste si el. Zâmbetul lui; iti amintesti.
Nu vreau sa ajungem sa ne salutam pe strada sa zambim si sa trecem mai departe.
Il vezi. Ii recunosti de departe freza caracteristica, mersul lipsit de griji. Inca nu iti dai seama daca te-a vazut. Oare te saluta? Oare s-a mai gandit? Daca se gandea probabil te-ar fi sunat. Inca nu intelegi ce s-a intamplat, nu vrei sa intelegi ca lui ii pasa atat de puțin încât nu a mai zis nimic, niciodata. Se apropie. Oare se va opri sa iti spuna ceva? Oare ce mai face? Pare fericit. Uite-l, iti face cu mana. "Hey!". Zambesti; nu stii cum dar doar faptul ca l-ai vazut si te-a salutat te-a facut parca mai fericita. Pare ciudat, dar parca e o confirmare a faptului ca nu te-a uitat. Zambeste si el. Zâmbetul lui; iti amintesti.
Nu vreau sa ajungem sa ne salutam pe strada sa zambim si sa trecem mai departe.
8 mai 2012
Au trecut ani
Au trecut ani si totul s-a schimbat…
Din cand in cand imi amintesc cum era, cum eram. Acum imi dau si eu seama cum e, sa poti sa iti formezi noi amintiri, poate noi sentimente. Acum imi dau si eu seama cat de ușor a fost pentru tine sa uiti, sa ignori. Mă gandesc ca poate de aia nu ai zis nimic, pentru ca nu stiai. Nu stiai cum e sa fii singur. Si nici acum nu stii, dar poate ca de acum o sa incep si eu sa uit. Sau macar sa ignor.
Au trecut ani si poate iti amintesti, din cand in cand, trecator, de o plimbare, o tigara sau un joc.
Sau poate ca nu. Poate ca iti amintesti de mine doar cand ai nevoie de ceva. Nu de cineva, de ceva. Atunci macar aveai nevoie de o persoana, si eu s-a nimerit, probabil, sa iti fiu cel mai aproape. Nu stiu. Poate am avut dreptate, atunci, si pentru tine totul nu a însemnat nimic.
Au trecut ani...
Din cand in cand imi amintesc cum era, cum eram. Acum imi dau si eu seama cum e, sa poti sa iti formezi noi amintiri, poate noi sentimente. Acum imi dau si eu seama cat de ușor a fost pentru tine sa uiti, sa ignori. Mă gandesc ca poate de aia nu ai zis nimic, pentru ca nu stiai. Nu stiai cum e sa fii singur. Si nici acum nu stii, dar poate ca de acum o sa incep si eu sa uit. Sau macar sa ignor.
Au trecut ani si poate iti amintesti, din cand in cand, trecator, de o plimbare, o tigara sau un joc.
Sau poate ca nu. Poate ca iti amintesti de mine doar cand ai nevoie de ceva. Nu de cineva, de ceva. Atunci macar aveai nevoie de o persoana, si eu s-a nimerit, probabil, sa iti fiu cel mai aproape. Nu stiu. Poate am avut dreptate, atunci, si pentru tine totul nu a însemnat nimic.
Au trecut ani...
12 aprilie 2012
cum sta treaba cu relatiile (nereusite)
intr-o relaie care "nu merge", cand se termina, exista cu siguranta cel putin o persoana care sufera, si care va suferi pentru o perioada de timp proportionala cu lungimea relatiei/intensitatea semtimentelor.
tot ce trebuie sa faci tu e sa ai grija, ca daca/atunci cand se va termina, sa nu fii ceea care va suferi. trebuie sa fii mereu cu un pas inainte, sa incerci sa gandesti totul cat mai rational, fara sa te implici emotional. gandeste totul ca pe o experienta, o aventura. gandeste-te la "drum" nu la cei cu care calatoresti. si atunci vei fi bine. cat timp reusesti sa te mentii detasata, esti "on the safe side". problemele se ivesc atunci cand incepi sa tii mai mult la tovarasii de drum decat la calatorie in sine. cand incepi sa cedezi; atunci iti arati slabiciunile, atunci devi vulnerabila. odata ajunsa in starea de vulnerabilitate, iti va fi extrem de dificil sa iti revi, sa recastigi avantajul.
chiar daca, de cele mai multe ori, lumea spune "ne-am despartit", pentru a evita situatiile penibile, intotdeauna va exista "s-a despartit de mine" sau "m-am despartit de el", un invingator al despartirii, si unul care iese in pierdere. de cele mai multe ori, cel care "castiga" e cel care a reusit sa se pastreze detasat si cat se poate de rational pe tot parcursul relatiei.
asta e secretul. nu pare greu. nu pare
tot ce trebuie sa faci tu e sa ai grija, ca daca/atunci cand se va termina, sa nu fii ceea care va suferi. trebuie sa fii mereu cu un pas inainte, sa incerci sa gandesti totul cat mai rational, fara sa te implici emotional. gandeste totul ca pe o experienta, o aventura. gandeste-te la "drum" nu la cei cu care calatoresti. si atunci vei fi bine. cat timp reusesti sa te mentii detasata, esti "on the safe side". problemele se ivesc atunci cand incepi sa tii mai mult la tovarasii de drum decat la calatorie in sine. cand incepi sa cedezi; atunci iti arati slabiciunile, atunci devi vulnerabila. odata ajunsa in starea de vulnerabilitate, iti va fi extrem de dificil sa iti revi, sa recastigi avantajul.
chiar daca, de cele mai multe ori, lumea spune "ne-am despartit", pentru a evita situatiile penibile, intotdeauna va exista "s-a despartit de mine" sau "m-am despartit de el", un invingator al despartirii, si unul care iese in pierdere. de cele mai multe ori, cel care "castiga" e cel care a reusit sa se pastreze detasat si cat se poate de rational pe tot parcursul relatiei.
asta e secretul. nu pare greu. nu pare
4 aprilie 2012
Zi!
- A zis da!
- Serios?
- Da!
- Nu-ni vine sa cred!
- Nici mie…nici nu stiu ce sa fac acum…
- De ce?
- Pentru ca nu pare real…
- Poate nici nu e
- Da, poate…
- Stii cum e? E ca primăvara. Te astepti sa vina in martie, dar ea te surprinde la inceputul lui februarie. Si tu esti fericit. Dar curând iti dai seama ca a fost doar o încercare, esuata. Apoi stai si astepti, si astepti, si se face mijlocul lunii martie, si inca ninge. Dar, dintr-o data, intr-o dimineata, rasare soarele, se incalzeste, iar tu iti spui gata, asta a fost tot, vine primăvara. Te pregatesti, iti faci planuri, iar cand esti mai entuziasmat atunci se hotaraste sa se strice vremea, sa ploua, chiar sa ninga. Si ajungi la ce ar trebui sa fie, teoretic, mijlocul primaverii, si te intrebi ce naiba s-a intamplat. Si nu mai intelegi nimic. Astepti o explicație, si stii ca vei afla răspunsul curând, e inevitabil, dat așteptarea, si mai ales frica de raspuns, e absolut ucigatoate.
- hmm…
- Mda, cam așa stau lucrurile.
- Serios?
- Da!
- Nu-ni vine sa cred!
- Nici mie…nici nu stiu ce sa fac acum…
- De ce?
- Pentru ca nu pare real…
- Poate nici nu e
- Da, poate…
- Stii cum e? E ca primăvara. Te astepti sa vina in martie, dar ea te surprinde la inceputul lui februarie. Si tu esti fericit. Dar curând iti dai seama ca a fost doar o încercare, esuata. Apoi stai si astepti, si astepti, si se face mijlocul lunii martie, si inca ninge. Dar, dintr-o data, intr-o dimineata, rasare soarele, se incalzeste, iar tu iti spui gata, asta a fost tot, vine primăvara. Te pregatesti, iti faci planuri, iar cand esti mai entuziasmat atunci se hotaraste sa se strice vremea, sa ploua, chiar sa ninga. Si ajungi la ce ar trebui sa fie, teoretic, mijlocul primaverii, si te intrebi ce naiba s-a intamplat. Si nu mai intelegi nimic. Astepti o explicație, si stii ca vei afla răspunsul curând, e inevitabil, dat așteptarea, si mai ales frica de raspuns, e absolut ucigatoate.
- hmm…
- Mda, cam așa stau lucrurile.
27 martie 2012
Tonight
"Why am I the fucking exception every fucking time?"
Mda, asta ar fi fost un titlu bun. Ar trebui sa mă fi obișnuit deja, niciodata nu mi se va intampla ceva normal, firesc, ceva la ce mă astept. Am ajuns sa mă gandesc doar la ce nu vreau, sa imi imaginez, pentru ca așa poate se va intampla exact opusul. Daca indraznesc sa imi doresc ceva, sa visez puțin cu ochii deschisi, pot fi 100% sigura ca nu se va intampla niciodata. Daca cumva ceva ajunge sa se incadreze in normele banalitatii, trebuie sa mă astept la o schimbare, o rasturnare de situație care sa schime tot.
Ca doar nu ne putem plictisi, nu?!
Mda, asta ar fi fost un titlu bun. Ar trebui sa mă fi obișnuit deja, niciodata nu mi se va intampla ceva normal, firesc, ceva la ce mă astept. Am ajuns sa mă gandesc doar la ce nu vreau, sa imi imaginez, pentru ca așa poate se va intampla exact opusul. Daca indraznesc sa imi doresc ceva, sa visez puțin cu ochii deschisi, pot fi 100% sigura ca nu se va intampla niciodata. Daca cumva ceva ajunge sa se incadreze in normele banalitatii, trebuie sa mă astept la o schimbare, o rasturnare de situație care sa schime tot.
Ca doar nu ne putem plictisi, nu?!
21 martie 2012
pe drum
Intri in masina, bagi cheia in contact, porneste muzica. E melodia aia, data la maxim. melodia aia. Nu iti vine sa crezi. Scoti nervos cd-ul si parca iti vine sa il arunci, sa il faci bucati-bucatele, dar nu faci asta. Nu faci asta pentru ca acolo, printre milioanele de biti de muzica, sunt si amintirile tale gramada, intr-o dezordine tipica. Scoti cd-ul si il pui frumos langa celelalte, chiar daca stii ca nu il vei mai asculta niciodata.
Pornesti motorul si pleci. E liniste, dureros de liniste, dar nu te induri sa dai drumul la radio; nu poti permite, inca, altei melodii, sa ia locul ei. Nu iti vine sa crezi, cum totul s-a schimbat, totul e rasturnat; cum parca ieri iti zambea din dreapta. Si totusi, iata-te: singur, la inceput de drum. Nu ti-ai inchipuit niciodata ca asa va incepe calatoria asta. De luni de zile planuiati impreuna toate detaliile, o si vezi entuziasmandu-se pentru fiecare nimic. Iti vin in minte, rand pe rand, toate melodiile din playlistul pe care ea l-a facut special pentru drum.
Incepe sa ploua, usor. Dai jos geamul si lasi vantul sa te racoreasca, sa iti umble prin par, asa cum, pana acum, erai obisnuit cu ea. Sunetul ploii, vajaitul vantului, parca te linistesc; iti continui drumul mai departe, pe soseaua goala. Te uiti la ceas: "e 6.13, la ora asta ar fi trebuit sa fim deja la benzinarie", o auzi reprosandu-ti in joaca. Vezi cum incepe sa se reflecte lumina rasaritului in asfaltul umed si intunecat. Iti imaginezi expresia ei, din fix acest moment, daca ar fi langa tine, daca nu s-ar fi intamplat nimic. Nu iti vine sa crezi ca nu mai e, nu iti vine sa crezi ca ai pierdut-o. Inca nu poti concepe singuratatea.
Fraiere.
Pornesti motorul si pleci. E liniste, dureros de liniste, dar nu te induri sa dai drumul la radio; nu poti permite, inca, altei melodii, sa ia locul ei. Nu iti vine sa crezi, cum totul s-a schimbat, totul e rasturnat; cum parca ieri iti zambea din dreapta. Si totusi, iata-te: singur, la inceput de drum. Nu ti-ai inchipuit niciodata ca asa va incepe calatoria asta. De luni de zile planuiati impreuna toate detaliile, o si vezi entuziasmandu-se pentru fiecare nimic. Iti vin in minte, rand pe rand, toate melodiile din playlistul pe care ea l-a facut special pentru drum.
Incepe sa ploua, usor. Dai jos geamul si lasi vantul sa te racoreasca, sa iti umble prin par, asa cum, pana acum, erai obisnuit cu ea. Sunetul ploii, vajaitul vantului, parca te linistesc; iti continui drumul mai departe, pe soseaua goala. Te uiti la ceas: "e 6.13, la ora asta ar fi trebuit sa fim deja la benzinarie", o auzi reprosandu-ti in joaca. Vezi cum incepe sa se reflecte lumina rasaritului in asfaltul umed si intunecat. Iti imaginezi expresia ei, din fix acest moment, daca ar fi langa tine, daca nu s-ar fi intamplat nimic. Nu iti vine sa crezi ca nu mai e, nu iti vine sa crezi ca ai pierdut-o. Inca nu poti concepe singuratatea.
Fraiere.
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